Letting go!!!

Once upon a time, not so long ago, I was minding my own business and living my life. My life is hardly complicated. I (think) know what I want in my life, I know who and what my priorities are. I had many friends, parties, hanging out at pubs and clubs, late at night with more friends.. Dancing and drinking. My ever so simple life, existed. After that not so long ago time, a girl came into my life. We were just friends, and did what friends normally do. Catch up for coffee, or a meal perhaps and the occasional e-mail to say hi.

Every once in a while, I would think of her and smile to myself. I would say to myself, she is pretty kool. There was nothing more to it. As the days went by, I found myself thinking of her, more and more. It came to a point where I would surprise myself, day dreaming about her in the middle of a meeting. Ofcourse, it didn't help in the mean time that we actually started hanging out more. It was totally innocent, phone calls and txt's were frequent, perhaps something that I can blame myself for, again. Mind you, all this happened in a very short span of time. There was this one stage, where I almost spent five evenings in a row with her.. Still keeping it innocent and just enjoying ourselves, hanging out with each other and having a rather good time enjoying each others company. We completely trusted each other.

At this point, I found myself, not wanting to look at other girls or just wanting to call just this girl for no reason. I though that this was very strange, cause, honestly, I am not the sort to give up an opportunity to have a quick glance at a pretty girl (sad, but true). I found myself not wanting to do anything else but to want to talk to her and just hang out with her, all the time.

Then and only then did it hit me like a sauce pan taken to your head, that perhaps, I was actually falling for this girl. I realised that nothing good would come off this, apart from a number of reasons, she was not to be close by for long. They say love is blind, I say it makes you stupid beyond comprehension as well.

I pushed it so far to a point where I almost lost her as a friend. Now that, I could not live with. My intentions were good, but it came out, in the worst possible way. I decided, that I was not willing to lose a lovely person in my life, just cause I could not see past my own nose. I made up my mind, that I would like to have her in my life as a friend, if not anything else.

We set aside our differences in opinion and thoughts and we put our friendship back on track. We are pretty good friends now, atleast I would like to think of it so. Afterall, how long can you expect to stare at a shooting star? That is what she was, in my life.

My point is, when two worlds collide, there are things that happen, unintentionally, that can lead to irreversible consequences. All I can say is, WATCHOUT, unless, ofcourse that is what you want to happen!!!

Sometimes, you have to let go of the person you love, in order for them to come back into your life. If they don't, then they were never meant to be.

My question is, How do you let go of something, that means so much to you? It makes you no saint by any measure, but only you know, how hard it is, to do so. This, is part of life, we need to sacrifice certain things, to retains others and perhaps we can learn a thing or two from this, about life in general.